Day +19 to Day +80

Day +80

Kurt saw his oncologist on Wednesday, so I am a little behind on this week's update. It was a great appointment and we left feeling really encouraged. She told us that the plan is not just to lower the Sirolimus but to go ahead and start to wean him off of it! Because, he has had no signs of GVHD, she is confident in going forward a little bit early to help alleviate the anemia Kurt has because of that drug. She also told us that at Day +100 he will be able to drop two other drugs: Fluconazole (to prevent fungal infections) and Ursodiol (to protect his liver). He should also be able to start weaning the Tacrolimus, if all is going well. It is great to know that his amount of medications will be able to be reduced!

In about three weeks, Kurt will also have his first post-transplant biopsy. This test will be able to verify at a deeper lever the % of donor cells vs. Kurt cells (though she did tell us the blood chimerism test is very accurate and the biopsy shouldn't be more than 1-2% different), show if he is still MRD-, and show if the translocation (genetic abnormality of his cancer cells) is present. He was MRD - and the translocation was absent before transplant, so we pray those two things remain the same!

Looking further out, she told us that she hopes Kurt will be off all immunosuppressants by day +180 (Mid-November). This is such exciting news, as it will mean his new immune system will finally be able to function and begin to mature.

For now, Kurt will continue with the daily magnesium infusions at the clinic and weekly check ups. We are so incredibly thankful for how well he is doing! August 5th marked the one year anniversary of his diagnosis. We are thankful for all of the 365 days, even the hard ones. They were days spent together and we are looking forward, in hope, to more. I hope we never take for granted what a gift each day is.

Please continue to pray that Kurt will do well with the medication reductions and that his biopsy coming up will be absolutely perfect! Also, please keep the patients on the BMT floor at UK in your prayers. We learned on Wednesday that visitors are currently not allowed on the floor because of COVID. Looking back on what Kurt went through during treatment and transplant, it breaks our hearts to think of patients having to be there alone. We pray this time of restriction will be short and for the nurses to have strength as they take on even more duties that family can normally do when there.

Day +75

At Kurt’s weekly checkup on Friday, the PA reassured us that he is doing great! His fatigue has been a little worse the last two weeks, so they ran some extra labs. All is well, but they did decided to reduced the Sirolimus to see if it will help alleviate the anemia. This will probably mean upping the Tacrolimus, which results in a continuation of the magnesium struggles. It’s complicated! Kurt will also start a B vitamin complex and an iron supplement. We are looking forward to Day +90 and beginning to reduce the Tacrolimus too!

We have been to the clinic for 51 days straight—that’s every day since June 11th minus 2 days (he got off for the 4th and missed one due to a scheduling mistake). We are thankful for 51 days without being in the hospital though!

We are happy to report that Kurt’s oncologist tested negative for Covid, but we were told all the staff on the BMT floor is being tested as there has been a case (or cases—we aren’t sure) on the floor. We continue to pray for their safety. Kurt’s PA told us she was thankful we weren’t up there right now.

Kurt should see his oncologist this Wednesday for another check up. We continue to pray his donor cells are working wonderfully, for some improvement in the anemia and fatigue, for his magnesium to come up, and for protection against Covid and other germs.

Day +67

Kurt had another good check up yesterday! Unfortunately, we didn’t get to see his oncologist (we saw her amazing PA instead) because she had been exposed to Covid at the hospital and had to be tested/isolate. She’s vaccinated but we are still hoping she tests negative and can get back to her patients!

Kurt’s magnesium and hemoglobin continue to be low. We continue to go to the clinic 7 days a week. Hopefully, this will all start to taper off as they wean the immunosuppressants later in August!

Kurt’s 2nd chimerism test came back late last night. He’s still 100% donor cells! We are so thankful!

The next big tests/events come around day +90 to +100. He will have his first post-transplant bone marrow biopsy, receive his first Covid vaccine, and begin a taper of the immunosuppressant drugs. We aren’t sure of the exact order or times of these things but we talked about them with the PA yesterday.

Day +60

Kurt had another great check-up this week! We love it when the appointments are boring and quick.

The Tacrolimus is still depleting his magnesium, so he has to continue doing the daily infusions. It’s gotten pretty old by now, but we are still so thankful he can do this and be home. His hemoglobin is still hovering around 8.5, but this too is a consequence of the Sirolimus. It will be a great day when he can start to wean off those two drugs!

The blood draw for the next Chimerism test will be this Tuesday (20th). We pray it will continue to show Kurt is 100% donor cells.

Otherwise, Kurt is working on gaining back some weight and re-growing hair. He has little spurts of growth that give him a cute, scruffy look! He has been able to work most afternoons, which he really enjoys. Last week, he was able to walk the “big loop” on our evening walk. We are looking forward to the time when he can run around and be his active, goofy self.

Day +52

Kurt had his weekly checkup today and got another good report. His magnesium was rather low after two days off this week (he got the 4th off and a scheduling error caused him to miss another day). To try and gain some ground, he’s been getting two bags of IV magnesium at the clinic each day. His oral magnesium was also increased again. We hope the levels will come up and stay but realize it might just stay low until the Tacrolimus is reduced.

Kurt’s hemoglobin has come up a bit more. Testing shows his red blood cells are all working properly. The culprit of the low hemoglobin is most likely the other immunosuppressant, Sirolimus.

Those drugs are necessary but a pain!

Kurt’s nausea still comes and goes but for now he will continue to use meds as needed for relief and his doctors will monitor it.

As we approach day +60 and the next chimerism test, we pray he will still be at 100% donor cells.

We have appreciated all the wonderful meals and encouragement over the past few weeks. Our kids love when Gene Bailey stops by with cookies and CFA! They also wait eagerly for Miss Valerie Holland and her never ending surprises!

Thank you for praying along side us

Day +45

Kurt is doing really well. He had a good report from his weekly check up yesterday. His counts are all where they should be and his hemoglobin finally decided to come up to 8 today! We hope this signals that it is on its way up. Low hemoglobin plays a big part in Kurt’s physical exhaustion.

Kurt is continuing with the daily magnesium infusions for now. He was able to increase the amount of oral magnesium he takes again this week. We hope this will eventually bump up his counts so we don’t have to go in every day.

The nausea that Kurt has been dealing with seems to be getting better each week. His doctors are carefully monitoring it. It could be nausea due to medications but it could also be mild GVHD.

We are so thankful that the chimerism test showed that he is 100% donor cells! We pray Kurt will stay at 100% for the rest of his life! He will repeat this test on day +60 and then have a bone marrow biopsy on day +100 to check at an even deeper level. We pray he will not have any kind of graft loss or graft failure.

Thank you for all your support and prayers.

Day +38

Kurt had a check up today. His counts look great and we talked about reducing the amount of fluids he gets. His magnesium is still low, so he will continue the daily magnesium infusions for now.

When we attended the appointment today the test results for the chimerism test were not back. We were disappointed but told they should be back early next week. Surprisingly, Kurt checked his online portal a few moments ago and we learned that he is 100% donor cells!! Praise the Lord for His mercy and tender care. We are so thankful and excited to hear this news!

Day +29

Kurt had a check up with Dr. Ramlal today. She was very please with his progress. His counts look good and she reminded us that they will still be low as long as he is on the Siro and Tacro. Kurt’s creatinine is back in the normal range and his blood pressure has stabilized more in the normal range (it was running high). He was able to discontinue his BP medicine but added a new prophylactic antibiotic.

His nausea continues to be a bit bothersome. She changed his anti-nausea meds and if there’s no improvement by next week she may order an endoscopy with biopsies just to make sure it isn’t GVHD.

On Friday, Kurt will have labs drawn for the chimera test. We’re praying he’s all donor cells!

For now, we will continue with the daily fluid appointments and lots of rest and as much food as possible.

Thank you for all your prayers!

Day +24

Kurt’s labs are still looking great. His platelets and hemoglobin continue to rise too. For the next 2-3 weeks (at minimum), Kurt has daily clinic appointments (at 8am ) for infusions of fluids and electrolytes. This includes weekends! His first visit yesterday was about 4.5 hours. Thankfully today they had permission to run the fluids at a higher rate, so it only took 2 hours. He also had a 7:30am appointment with the nurse practitioner. Maybe we will become early birds?!

The rest of the day is spent relaxing and napping. Kurt enjoyed the French Open this afternoon. He’s eating better and I think will rest better at home. We are so thankful!

Please continue to pray about the chimera testing next week to see the % of donor cells vs. Kurt’s cells. We pray it will be 100% donor cells! This test takes 7 days to process, so it will be a bit of a wait for results. We continue to pray for protection against infection and GVHD too.

Right now, his mom is making his favorite—chicken tetrazzini. He’s ready for dinner!

Day +22

Kurt is being discharged TODAY! We are so excited to be able to get home to our kiddos. Kurt needs a little more IV potassium and then we should be free to go later this afternoon.

He goes home with 11 medications and daily clinic visits but...HOME! He will also see his oncologist twice weekly for awhile.

Please continue to pray that Kurt’s body will heal well, he will be free from infection and GVHD, and that on day +30 he will be 100% donor cells. Your prayers have held us up during this time. We cannot thank you enough or praise God enough for all He has done.

Day +21

Kurt’s labs continue to look great. His hemoglobin even came up a bit! He’s eating more

and healing each day. Last night he ate a whole serving of lasagna and this morning two bowls of cereal!

Nausea still creeps up at times, so he is trying to be proactive about getting meds before it strikes.

His oncologist told us it will probably be Thursday or Friday before he is discharged. He’s needing quite a bit of electrolyte replacement each day. Yesterday, they started adding a pill form of magnesium and they will try to increase that and add a potassium pill so he won’t require as much via the IV. The Tacrolimus and Sirolimus cause a lot of electrolyte wasting, but his oncologist did say the body will adapt after a couple weeks. We pray that Kurt’s body will be able to get the right balance, so we can go home and then come to clinic for the infusions he does need.

Thank you for praying. We are ready to be home but trying to wait patiently to make sure Kurt’s body is ready!

Day +20

Kurt had another good day today. His neutrophils are way up at 3.5! His platelets have recovered a lot and are 87. His hemoglobin is still low at 7.4, but his oncologist assured us that it will come up with time.

His mouth and GI issues are SO much better. He has some nausea at times but it is well controlled with meds. We are so happy with his progress!

Today, Kurt was able to start taking some magnesium orally. We hope this will cut down on how much magnesium he needs via IV. He tolerated it well.

We hope that he will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow or Wednesday.

Praying those donor cells are working perfectly at 100%!

Day +19

Kurt is doing well today. We don't have an update on all his labs (UK switched over to a new computer system yesterday and the new patient portal hasn't updated), but his oncologist stopped by and said everything looks great. His GI symptoms have improved a great deal and he is eating more each day. Small, frequent meals seem to be working much better in controlling the nausea and getting in calories. He is still fatigued and takes lots of naps--as well as one can nap in the hospital! He's had an annoying little headache the past couple of days (could be a side effect of the Tacro). Thankfully, they are going to let him try a dose of Tylenol today. Tylenol isn't generally given up here because it can mask a fever.

We hope Kurt will be discharged on Tuesday, but we should know more regarding that possibility tomorrow. I feel like they never really tell us until the day we are going home!

After he is discharged, he will have daily clinic visits for several weeks. The Tacrolimus depletes electrolytes like crazy, so he will probably need electrolyte replacement daily (this takes around 3 hours at the infusion center). We pray we will be able to navigate that well. We are so thankful that we live so close to UK and the clinic!

Thank you for praying with us. We continue to pray that Kurt will be protected from infection and GVHD. We pray that he is 100% donor cells and that will show plainly on the testing on day +30.

Day +1 through Day +16: A recap of Facebook Posts

Day +1 update

The headache is still with us, unfortunately. Kurt had a CT scan and we are thankful it was clear! Now, his team is trying to discern if the headache is from one of the medications he’s taking, the DMSO preservative the cells were frozen in, or just the body’s response to the transplant itself. They are trying a “migraine cocktail” now with some backup plans for later if it doesn’t help. Kurt has been very miserable with little sleep. Praying God will take this headache away and give him sweet rest.

Later (5/19/21) After trying several medications, Kurt’s team decided to try the migraine medication, Imitrex. Thankfully, it has brought his headache down from a “9” to a “3”! Praise God! Hopefully, we can stay on top of it and it won’t come back. Thank you for praying with us today. God’s peace was unmistakably felt. Kurt was even able to eat some dinner and take a shower! God is good!

Day +2 and into +3

Kurt's headache on Day +1 was finally resolved after a hot shower and the migraine medication Imitrex. By yesterday morning, the headache was gone completely! Praise God!

Kurt is having more GI symptoms, including some mucositis. Thankfully, he doesn't have any open lesions in his mouth right now, but his throat and mouth are very red and painful. Another aggravating symptom is thick saliva--making it harder to swallow and adding to the nausea. He's talking a lot less and we've been remembering some of the sign language we used when our kiddos were babies. To help with the mucositis, his team has given him a couple different mouth washes with some pain reliever/numbing agents. He's trying to drink more to thin the saliva. Eating has been difficult but he's making an incredible effort. So far cold apple sauce and Carnation Breakfast Essentials are the winners. The dietitian is making a protein rich milkshake for him later today. We are thankful for his team, including dietary!

Kurt also spiked a fever last night. He had been dealing with a low grade fever all day. The doctors ordered cultures and a chest x-ray. They also do stool and urine tests. We are so thankful that every test has come back negative--another huge praise! Kurt's on a stronger IV antibiotic now just to be safe. Fevers are common after transplant without indicating infection we are told.

Kurt slept well last night and goals for today include: eating and drinking more, along with walking more. He's been more awake this morning, but post-transplant fatigue is rough. His body has been through so much and just needs to rest too.

Thank you for continuing to pray along side us. Each day is a gift from God that we don't take for granted--even the hard ones. As another patient on the floor told us while we were walking, "Everyday is a good day, but some are better than others."

Day +4

Last night, we found out that one of the cultures taken on Thursday grew a type of "gram positive" bacteria. The team told us they will allow the culture to continue to grow, so they can identify the bacteria. They even do DNA testing on bacteria! Kurt began a stronger antibiotic called vancomycin last night. We believe this bacteria may be the source of his fevers. The team will continue to draw blood and watch the cultures until they are all coming back negative. Thankfully, this type of bacteria is very susceptible to antibiotics. It's very scary to hear the word "infection" when dealing with Leukemia, but his team has assured us almost everyone deals with similar infections post-transplant and they are well equipped to handle it.

Kurt was up more today. He even managed to play his ukulele for a few minutes and help me with a puzzle. Unfortunately, his mouth and throat are still extremely sore. His entire GI tract isn't at all normal. Eating was a challenge again today, but he tried his best! We have a couple different mouth washes he can use, a throat spray, and he even tried a pediatric dose of morphine. Some post-transplant patients end up utilizing a pain pump. We hope Kurt can avoid it, but it is nice know medications are here if he needs them. Even though pain meds help, it is very hard to deal with mouth pain effectively. Once his new cells engraft and start working, his GI tract should begin to heal rapidly (though taste and appetite are often effected for months after). His doctor told us that the cells know what areas of the body are damaged and in pain and will go to those areas first once they start working! Again, we are left in awe of how wonderfully God made us.

I helped Kurt cut his hair tonight and he trimmed his beard. His hair is already starting to fall out in response to the chemo and radiation last week. We look forward to it growing back again. Until then, he's cozy in the cute fleece St. Louis Cardinals hats his mom made him!

Please continue to pray Kurt will be able to eat, find pain relief and relief from GI issues, the bacteria will be completely eradicated by the antibiotic, and that his new cells will begin to engraft next week and work beautifully.

Thank you!

Day +5

Not much new to report today! While we can't wait for the mouth/throat pain and GI issues to be gone, we are thankful for an uneventful day. Kurt's pain level is pretty much the same. Meds do help dull the pain and he was able to drink a lot more. It's still a challenge. He's been up and about a decent amount too.

The culture hasn't grown anything--that's good news! They will continue to check for a couple of days to be sure. His temperature has been perfectly normal. Yay!

Kurt did need platelets before bed, but those go really fast thanks to the new catheter. We are so thankful for all the blood donors. If you can donate, please know it is very much needed and very much appreciated!

Pressing on...

Day +6

Kurt didn't get much sleep last night--tummy issues, so this morning we did some reevaluating and his team landed on another medication to try to help with GI issues and added a pain pump to his care. While he's on a lower dose of pain medication, the pump allows him to be in charge of how often he gets relief. I think we hit on a happy middle ground--he got a lot of pain relief today and wasn't drowsy/loopy from meds either. Win! Win! Kurt told me this evening his pain level went from 7 to a 2! It is still very hard to swallow but we are hopeful managing the pain better will allow him to start eating more.

His doctor also clarified that most patients don't engraft until around days +14 to +20. In our ALL group on FB, patients have talked about beginning to engraft from day +10 all the way up to day +25. We pray Kurt will be on the earlier side of things but adjusted our expectations accordingly. I'm still not sure where I saw the 7 -14 days, but we've had so much information thrown at us my brain is probably a little scrambled. We pray God will sustain Kurt this week, that he will be able to eat more, get continued relief, and, that by next week, we will start to see signs that the new cells are working.

Day +7

Holding steady on day +7! The pain pump has really brought a lot of relief and Kurt was able to eat more today. Thankfully, his mouth and throat don't seem to be getting worse at this point. We pray that things will just stabilize and then get better. His GI issues are still pretty prevalent, so that's still a challenge. It makes sleep hard when frequent trips to the bathroom are necessary.

We both had an afternoon nap today and went for a walk this evening. We also caught up on the latest "The Chosen" episode. This one was a bit of a cliff-hanger. The verse repeated in the episode is part of a larger passage of Psalm 139 that we have been praying. I loved when Jesus told Simeon the Zealot, "I didn't need you. I wanted you."

Pressing onward in faith.

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12

Day +8

Not much new to report today! We are just trying to stay the course, get Kurt as much pain relief as possible, and find things he can tolerate to eat. Today's victory included a few bites of mashed potatoes! So far, most of his diet is liquid. He's trying to learn to like the Breeze and Boost type drinks.

Sleep is still a challenge with the GI issues, so we continue to pray for that as well. Kurt usually naps a fair bit throughout the day too and that helps make up for the deficit a bit.

Because the cultures haven't continued to grow, Kurt is on the last two days of IV antibiotics. After those finish, he'll go back to the regular prophylactic antibiotic Levaquin.

Thank you for praying and for your messages. They are encouraging and give us strength. We are praising God for protecting Kurt and giving him the strength to endure this. We pray that relief will soon be on the way. Come on little cells!

Day +10

The past few days have just been all about holding steady. A few positives that have happened: Kurt slept much better last night, his throat pain seems to have decreased, his GI symptoms seem a tad bit better, he finished up the stronger antibiotics and can return to the regular prophylactic, and he's been getting some more fluids down.

Kurt's Tacrolimus and Sirolimus levels were high yesterday, so Siro has been paused and Tacro lowered while those come down. One of the odd side effects of the Tacro being high is a burning sensation in the feet. Thankfully, a nice foot bath in cold water brings some lasting relief. Getting the immunosuppressant levels right is a balancing act!

Today, Kurt begins a prophylactic medication to prevent a reactivation of CMV (cytomegalovirus). This is just another step in the post-transplant process for patients who tested positive for CMV prior to transplant. Like Epstein Barr, CMV is something most people have been infected with and it lies dormant the majority of the time. However, the weakened immune system post transplant can open the door for a reactivation of the illness.

We continue to tweak pain meds to help Kurt eat. His pain is much less when he is just being still, but eating or talking are still a challenge. He does have a few open lesions in his mouth, but his throat is feeling and looking a bit better.

Would you please pray that we can manage Kurt's pain well and that he will be able to eat more? Ultimately, we pray that he will begin to engraft over the next week, so that his body can begin repairing this area. We continue to pray for protection against infection of every kind.

Thank you for all your support.

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12

Day +11

After 12 days of all neutrophils, lymphocytes, monocytes, and WBCs being 0, we were thrilled to wake up to these labs today. Based on this, Kurt’s body is starting to engraft! Praise God! He needs to have three days in a row of his neutrophils at .5 or above to be considered engrafted. His numbers could teeter-totter for a few days, but we should start to see an overall rise over the next week.

What wonderful news at the end of a hard week! There’s only thankfulness! God is so merciful!

We pray these numbers will continue to rise, Kurt’s mouth and GI tract will heal, that he will continued to be protected from infection and that he will have the right amount of Graft vs Leukemia effect and no GVHD!

Day +12

Kurt's neutrophils continued to rise today to .62! The oncologist said that today is probably the first official day of engraftment. If the neutrophils stay above .5 for the next two days, he will be considered engrafted. We pray they will hold steady and continue to rise.

Kurt's mouth is still quite sore. He's still on a mostly liquid diet, but is drinking more. Mashed potatoes and beef broth have been a good meal and he's managed to eat some soggy Rice Krispies in almond milk. We continue to pray his entire GI tract will heal this week so he can eat more and reduce the pain meds.

Kurt is quite sleepy most of the time. His body is obviously exhausted from the whole process, but the pain meds make him a little sleepy too. Last night, he made it through two episodes of "I Love Lucy" and a shower without a nap!

Tomorrow, his Tacrolimus levels will be checked again and we are hopeful they have come down within range. The burning sensation in his feet has calmed down, so that's great.

We've been at UK 20 days today and are so thankful for their wonderful care. Of course, we are looking forward to going home. Every day brings us closer!

Please continue to pray that Kurt has a smooth engraftment process, that he is protected from infection, and that his body will accept these new cells perfectly. We pray they would kill off any remaining Leukemia cells to keep Kurt healthy and that they would not see his body as foreign.

Day +13

Happy Memorial Day!

Kurt’s neutrophils continue to rise! They are at 1.02 today! His mouth and GI symptoms seem to be very slowly starting to improve. His throat seems much better, but he still has some lesions in his mouth. He did manage to eat some soggy cereal this morning!

Eating, drink, and some good naps are ok the agenda. We are SO incredibly thankful.

Day +14

Kurt’s neutrophils are 1.24 today and he is considered officially engrafted!! He still has a long recovery ahead but a huge hurdle has been overcome! Praise God! Join us in offering Him praise with a thankful heart today!

Day +15 (Day 23 at UK)

Kurt’s neutrophils inched up a bit more to 1.27. His mouth and GI issues are continuing to heal. This morning he even ate a bowl of cereal! He looks and sounds so much better. It’s amazing the difference a week can make!

Tomorrow, Kurt’s Tacrolimus will be switched from an IV med to a pill form in preparation for going home. He’s still getting daily magnesium and potassium, as the Tacro depletes electrolytes. His IV fluids were reduced a bit more too. He hasn’t needed pain meds since Sunday/Monday. Nausea still strikes at times, but meds knock it out. So far, Kurt hasn’t needed a blood transfusion (pretty incredible), but he has needed platelets several times. Thankfully, he hasn’t needed any for several days.

The tentative plan is that he might get discharged early next week! We are looking forward to being home when it is safe. After discharge, Kurt will still have daily clinic appointments for several weeks.

We are so thankful for how well he is doing and for God’s many blessings and mercies. We continue to pray against infection and GVHD. We pray these new cells will thrive and the Leukemia will never return!

Day +16

The upward trend continues! Kurt's neutrophils were 1.76 today. He made it into the bottom of the normal range (1.6-6.1). His platelets also rose a bit on their own signifying that his red blood cells are also starting to recover. His hemoglobin is still pretty low at 7.1, but we have been told that it will recover last. Kurt's hemoglobin was 15 when he was admitted to start the transplant process, so he is certainly feeling the difference. It's pretty incredible that he hasn't need a blood transfusion so far. We'll see if his hemoglobin can hang on and start to rise, or if he'll end up with a transfusion in the next day or so. No matter what happens, that's a pretty amazing accomplishment. His doctor was impressed!

Nausea still continues to try to pop up throughout the day, but Kurt is eating more. He managed to eat some bites of biscuits and gravy this morning and just finished a bowl of cereal.

Tonight, he'll get to take his first oral dose of Tacrolimus.

Overall, the days are getting more boring which is exactly how we like it! We praise God for "boring" days.

The next big milestone will be on day +30 when they do bloodwork to check the % of donor cells vs. Kurt's cells. We pray that his cells will be 100% donor cells. This test will be repeated at day +60 and then Kurt will have his first post-transplant bone marrow biopsy around day +100.

Counting up one day at a time!

Day 0, Transplant Day

 

After a week of conditioning, Kurt received his stem cell transplant today at 2:28pm EST. Days -8 through -1 included: 11 total body radiation treatments, chemo, and three treatments of Thymoglobulin. Kurt had to deal with fatigue, nausea, fever, rash, and rigors (shaking). Today, a little over 9 months after his initial diagnosis, he received the gift of stem cells and the hope of a future without Leukemia. 

In the Leukemia world, Day 0 is transplant day, a second birthday, a re-birthday if you will. After some pre-meds (that made Kurt pretty drowsy), the transplant team brought up the frozen stem cells. This beautiful gift from a stranger in Europe arrived in Lexington, bringing hope and new life. We are so incredibly thankful for Kurt's donor and his sacrifice of time, comfort, and stem cells to save Kurt's life. 

Kurt received 4 syringes full of stem cells through the tri-fusion catheter in his chest. The oncologist infused them each slowly over a 30 minute period. During that time, Kurt was asked to eat hard candy, as preservative to protect the stem cells can cause a terrible taste in the mouth and tickling in the throat. He appropriately chose "LifeSavers" candy. 

And now, we wait for those cells to enter Kurt's bone marrow, engraft, and to produce cells. Engraftment generally takes 7-14 days. As we wait for them to begin to work, Kurt's own marrow and cells are dying or already destroyed. His counts will be non-existent. He will require blood transfusions, prophylactic medications to prevent infection, and careful observation. Kurt has also already began immunosuppressant medications that will keep the donor cells from attacking his body. We hope he will have Graft vs. Leukemia effect where the donor cells kill off any cancer cells they encounter, but we pray he does not have Graft vs. Host Disease (GVHD) where the donor cells attack his body. They thymoglobulin treatments he had pre-transplant will also help in preventing GVHD. 

Over the next two weeks, as we wait for the cells to engraft and begin to work, we pray that Kurt will be protected from infection, GVHD, and mucosistis (mouth sores/sores in the GI tract). We pray that his body will fully accept these new cells and that they will work beautifully for many years to come! 

Today, Kurt completed another part of the marathon that his fighting ALL. We come now to the longest part of his journey--the post-transplant healing. We have been told to expect a rough time for the next two weeks. We know we serve an awesome God who can take away these nasty side effects! We also know that if this prayer isn't answered the way we want, He will walk with us through the hard days. 

Thank you for coming along side us and praying. That you for all the messages and encouragement today and on many other days. Thank you for praying for and supporting our children. We love each of you!  

And the count down begins...

 

Last week was a busy one for Kurt! On Tuesday, we met with the radiation team and discussed the radiation treatments Kurt will have as a part of transplant. Kurt also went through the process of mapping, so the radiologists will know exactly where to "shoot" him. He was pretty disappointed to learn that he won't become the Hulk or gain other super powers. If you ask me, he's already proven he's Superman! 

Kurt will have a total of 11 total body irradiation treatments during transplant. The radiation serves two purposes: it will kill any leukemia cells that might be hiding out and it will kill off Kurt's own immune system, so that there is room for the new donor cells to engraft. 

On Tuesday afternoon, we met with Kurt's oncologist. We learned that the most recent biopsy shows that he is still MRD -! We are so thankful that the Blincyto worked so well for him. The spinal fluid they tested was also negative for leukemia! Kurt was cleared for transplant and signed all the consent forms. His donor donated stem cells last Tuesday and Wednesday. We learned, based on paperwork Kurt signed, that his donor is from Europe. We know he is likely a young male, but we aren't allowed to know any further information. We are so very thankful for him and hope to be able to thank him one day! 

Kurt's doctor also went over the plan for transplant with us. Kurt will be admitted on May 10th to begin the process. Here is the timeline she gave us: 

May 10th: Admit to UK (fluids, prep) Day -8 

May 11th: TBI (Total Body Irradiation) 3 Sessions Day -7 

May 12th: TBI 3 sessions Day -6

May 13th: TBI 3 sessions Day -5

May 14th: TBI 2 sessions Day -4

May 15th: Etoposide (Chemo) and Thymoglobulin Day -3

May 16th: Thymoglobulin, begin immunosuppressants Sirolimus and Tacrolimus Day -2

May 17th: Thymoglobulin Day -1

May 18th: Stem Cells Day 0 

After Kurt receives his stem cells, we begin to count up (Day +1, Day +2). We expect Kurt's new cells to engraft (begin to work) around day +7 to +14. Kurt will have a 4-6 week hospital stay and then daily clinic visits for several weeks. During the first 100 days, he is particularly susceptible to illness. When he reaches day 90-100, he will have his first biopsy and begin reducing the immunosuppressants. Hopefully, he will be able to be COVID vaccinated at 2-3 months post transplant. 

On Thursday, Kurt had his tri-fusion catheter placed. This is a relatively short procedure but took all day, as he got bumped back for an emergency. Unlike the PICC line that Kurt has had so far, the tri-fusion is in his chest and has three lumens instead of two. It should be much easier to use and take care of. Best of all, it should also have a lower infection risk. We are so thankful that Kurt never had an infection with the PICC lines during his treatment. Kurt was pretty sore for the first 24 hours, but is feeling much better now. 

It is hard to pack up and prepare for another lengthy hospital stay. We are so thankful for all the help we have had with our children and for all the prayers and encouragement we have received. We are both nervous about transplant but take courage in knowing we are safe in God's hands. 

As we head into transplant would you please join us in praying: 

-For Kurt to tolerate each new treatment well with minimal side effects. We specifically pray that he will NOT have mucositis (painful mouth sores/sores lining the digestive tract). This is a particularly painful side effect, prominent during transplants, often leading to weight loss and the need for a pain pump/feeding tube. God has protected Kurt from mouth sores so far and we pray that He will continue to do so! 

-For Kurt to be able to eat and maintain his weight during transplant 

-For Kurt's donor cells to engraft and work perfectly 

-For any remaining leukemia we can't see to be obliterated 

-For minimal Graft-vs-Host Disease (we want graft vs leukemia but we don't want the donor cells to attack Kurt's body) 

-For Kurt's organs to be protected during all of these treatments, particularly for his lungs, kidneys, liver, and GI tract to have no infections or complications 

-For Kurt to be protected from germs and the reactivation of dormant viruses like Epstein Barr or CMV

-For Kurt's heart to be encouraged and for God to give him peace and comfort daily 

-For our children at home to be comforted and have peace with mom and dad away for so long. We pray they will be protected from illness or injury during this time. We pray their hearts will feel God's loving care. 

-For our parents and family members caring for our children 

Thank you for praying with us and for us. If you would like get daily updates during transplant, please contact me for information regarding our Facebook group. 

At the Cliff's Edge

 

It's spring in Kentucky. The trees are putting on an early show with short bursts of color. The bright purples, pinks, and whites are a shock to the senses after the dull browns and grays of the long winter. The grass is starting to grow rapidly and has transformed from a dull, dark green into a vibrant, living, movement filled carpet that is so beautiful and bright it hurts the eyes. We are surrounded by new life. The birds are singing bright notes, the earth is teeming with living things. It's a low hum of life that will become louder each day until it reaches a shrill frenzy in the hot summer and regresses into sleep with the autumn days. 

We celebrated Easter and Christ's resurrection with a perfect blue sky day. I watched the bees happily making their way through the warm air. I listened carefully for the frogs singing in the evening, but I couldn't hear them from the hill on which my parents' house is perched. And while my eyes delighted in the colors and my skin relished the warm breezes, I also had to fight, claw my way out of the darkness, coldness that tries to control me. 

We've cruised past the one-year anniversary of Covid, one year of lock downs, isolation--one that was very different from all the years before. One year since I walked into a store, sat near a friend, hugged a friend, sat in our church, and heard voices lifted to Heaven. I could have made different choices early on in the pandemic, but God, in His wonderful grace and mercy, gave me peace regarding COVID, and also an odd desire to be careful that I couldn't always explain. I was fearful at first, like many others, but later it wasn't fear but some urging that kept me cautious. I thank God for that direction and how He kept Kurt safe. This time last year, Kurt first starting feeling faint at times, oddly out of breath. We chalked it up to getting older, being out of shape, and later I suspected Lyme disease, poor diet, anything, anything except Leukemia. 

Eight months ago, after months of isolation, church on the lawn, drive by birthdays, lots of Amazon orders and grocery pick ups, life was again thrown off in kilter an even greater way when Leukemia seemed to blindside us. I'm a researcher by nature and thankfully my degree has helped me to be able to find good sources of knowledge. What is at times a gift can also be a curse. I remember wishing during that time of waiting that I wish I didn't have the knowledge--just enough--to know that something was very, very wrong. They day we got the blood work back that sent us racing to a hematologist/oncologist, I saw the results first on the medical portal while in the van. We were somewhere in Indiana driving home from Missouri. I scrolled up and down frantically, reading the numbers again and again. I knew. My stomach sank through the floor of the car. My breath grew short. I felt bile in the back of my throat. "Whatever it is, it isn't good." I knew that. 

I think I have been reflecting on that day more recently, as we get closer to transplant day. A lot of those initial emotions have been washing over me again and again. There is fear of the unknown. No matter how much we read regarding transplant, no matter how much we feel prepared, we are stepping off another cliff and diving into a mysterious and unpredictable future. I, for one, am terribly afraid of heights. I can only climb onto the second or third rung of a ladder before I start become dizzy. I didn't expect the kind of cliff diving we would be called to do during the last thirteen months, but apparently metaphorical cliff diving also triggers the same dizzy, out of control feelings as I imagine the real thing does. 

The truth, however, is that we are always standing at the edge of a cliff, the edge of the mysterious and unknowable future. In the long run, as believers, we know the end of the story--the magnificent and glory-filled end. As finite humans, we don't know what's coming day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute, heartbeat to heartbeat. Leukemia, and I imagine any other life changing diagnosis, just brings the cliff edge into sharper view. What we once viewed through the hazy fog of our own weak willpower and human ability to think we are in control, is given over to a sharp, clear, binocular-like focus of the cliff's edge. We don't know if we will fall in the abyss or sprout wings and soar. Perhaps we will fall a little way and land on a surprisingly soft bed of grass or snow. We might be beaten, bruised, or impaled on the sharp rocks at the bottom. 

Approaching transplant is a bit like this. It's not a task that is undertaken lightly. It is a treatment reserved for when the "big guns" are needed. It's something to be avoided until it becomes absolutely necessary. It is a hope for a cure, but a road sometimes paved with hellish suffering. We won't know if Kurt will be among those who sail through or if he will be one who has a rocky road before him, until our feet leave the cliff's edge and and we jump headlong into the wind. 

I find myself rocking on the ocean of a thousand emotions. Some moments are so normal that they slip by unnoticed as they did before--the daily grind of dishes, laundry, school, bedtime routines, crafts, and family walks. Other moments are filled with such a grief-filled sorrow that I can only clasp the edges of my little boat, white-knuckled until they pass--folding his shirts, his wedding band on the dresser, the soft rustle of the bed as he climbs in--what if it all passes away? And I'm off, sailing through a private storm until my little boat catches, and the anchor pulls me back to calm waters. 

We are watching the sunrises and the sunsets from the cliff edge these days. They are frighteningly beautiful, so clear. Soon we will rise, dust off our feet, join hands and when he jumps into that darkness, I'll jump with him. We'll hold on tightly to the sides of the boat and trust God's hands will gently guide us through to the other side of the valley. 

"But those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." 

Isaiah 40:31